We're having a baby!

Losing a child was one of the hardest things I have went through emotionally.  But, God helped me through it.  After 5 months we found out that we were having another baby.  I'm so grateful and happy that God has blessed us with another child.  But, to be honest this pregnancy isn't the same. For the first trimester I was so scared of miscarrying that it wasn't very enjoyable for me.  Every time I would go to the bathroom  I would wait to see if there was blood.  It was awful.  At 5, 8 and 12 weeks I did have some bleeding, but it stopped.  It was just a reminder of what had happened a few months prior.  But, once I was in the second trimester I had some relief knowing that the chances of losing this baby was very slim.  I was able to start enjoying the pregnancy.  If anything this experience has brought me closer to God.  There was a reason we lost our child.  Only God knows why and I'm okay with not knowing.  I find comfort in knowing that my little angel is with God and I will see them again.  I know that if I was to dwell on the fact we lost a child that wouldn't be fair to this one.  So I have prayed and learned to accept that God has a bigger plan.  I might not always understand it, but I do trust in him.  God is Love!