Deployment & First Office Visit

Deployment & First Office Visit

This was absolutely the happiest moment of my life!  Knowing that God had blessed me with this wonderful miracle.  My husband left that Friday morning going into work.  Once I was alone I began to thinking about his possible deployment.  Everything had changed now, I didn't want him going anywhere.  I wanted him to be able to experience this with me.  But, unfortunately we wouldn't have that choice, it was up to the Air Force.  I tried to look at the bright side, if he left now, he would get back just in time for the birth.  I would much rather him be here for that instead of the pregnancy.   Later that day my husband came home from work.  He told me the best news, it seemed that they weren't going to deploy after all.

That following morning I began to have denial so I took another pregnancy test, it read positive.  On Monday I set up an appointment on base and got a blood test, a requirement for our insurance company, it came back positive.  After getting these results I called and setup a visit with my OBGYN.  

The morning of my doctors appointment I was so anxious and excited.  What was going to happen, would we get to see the baby, hear the heartbeat?  We had no idea what to expect, but was ready.  After the typical physical exam was done it was now time to get out the ultrasound.  My husband came up beside me and held my hand.  This was it, the big moment of seeing our baby for the first time.  As the screen came on we waited to see our little miracle.  As we set there waiting the nurse looks at us without saying a word.  She turns off the machine and we are so confused, why didn't see show us the baby?  She begins to explain that she can't find a heartbeat or the baby. 

I look at my husband confused and devastated.  What did this mean, I didn't understand.  All the test came back positive, how could she not see anything?  She began to explain to us what possibly could be going on.  I could have miscarried, in the process of miscarrying, or it was just to soon in the pregnancy.  She scheduled us back in two weeks.  Now we have to wait...